So true. My heart hurts right now so maybe that should tell you where all of this is stemming from. But, when I think about my own past, I can't help but totally agree with the statement above.
I missed out on dating altogether my Freshman year in college because I held so tightly to a letter and a belief that my high school boyfriend, "still wanted to marry me". I was given a two page list of all the "reasons I was a princess" by my college boyfriend, only to be found "uninteresting" a few months later. I won't bore you with the countless notes, texts, emails, sweet gestures, etc... made by all the in-betweeners ...the guys that didn't quite make it to boyfriend status because they all dropped me, out of the blue, before getting there. And, now my recent endeavor...hearing I was the, "best girl he knows", the "kindest girl he's ever met", "more passion with me than any girl before"...only hours later to stand in my doorway sobbing, watching him leave me. Who does that? Guys have NO IDEA the impact of their words. If I truly am the most beautiful person in the world, then why would you walk away from that? I know if I ever met the most beautiful person in the world I should probably like to stay around them. Call me crazy.
One of the movies I watched over and over in college was, Someone Like You. I tried to find the video clip for you. Fail. So the quote will have to do. I have clung to that quote so many times over the years. Ashley Judd gave such a relate-able character...
Eddie: It's over. Why can't you just let it go? Jane: I can't.
Eddie: Why? Jane: Because I was happy. Because if this theory is wrong, men don't leave all women, Eddie. They leave me. Eddie: I know it hurts. I know. It's so hard to believe that something that wonderful can ever happen to us again, but it can.
I would like to slightly save some face by concluding with the contributing factors, making this a mere case of a - dreary, lack of vitamin D - being around family during the Holidays makes me extra wish I had a husband - turning 30 the day after tomorrow - just got dumped by a guy I thought was in love with me - oh goody back to more "girls nights out" shoot me in the face -BLUES.
Can't wait to get home and completely clean my house. That will help.
