Friday, July 24, 2009

Malaysia








We only had one day in Malaysia but it was great. We stayed in China town in this gross little hotel room. I was mostly just grossed out because there was hair on my pillow and the sheets were stained, and it took a while for the toilet to flush. But no biggie, i just didnt shower that night...and opted not to use the super-worn flip flop shower shoes offered by the hotel.

We ate dinner, walked around town, and looked at all the city lights and jumping fountains. I found a poster of Milo Ventimiglia in the train station and am pictured above drooling. I've been in love with that man since Gilmore Girls. Victoria kept saying she had seen something about a tea tasting house. We kept making fun that we didnt believe her because we couldnt find it and nobody knew what we were talking about. And then we rounded a corner and there it was...a little hole in the wall tea shop with a table and dishes set up for tasting. Along with a man who either didnt speak english, or pretended not to when i would ask him questions. You know maybe he was deaf? Ya thats it!...except the tv was on. hmmm.

We got up REALLY early and took the train down town to get in line for tickets to the sky bridge on the Twin Patronas towers. Being on the bridge was a cool view and all...but Malaysia has really built up the hype on this thing. Now, I'm no architect, so maybe this thing is a much bigger deal than i'm giving it credit, especially for malaysia...but i think all the standing in line for tickets, and the Petronas exhibit beforehand, the movie-theater-video of how the towers were built....i think its just a bunch of fluff. Its 2 tall buildings made of glass and steel. Its pretty at night. It has a bunch of expensive stores in it. There you go.

Then we went to the butterfly park and it was fun. All different kinds of butterflies there and i spent hours just trying to get pictures of some. My camera is much too slow for the wings of a butterlfy.

That evening we flew to Bali.

Wednesday, July 22, 2009

Laos










After about thirty total hours of travel (dallas-tokyo-bankok-udon tani + bus to Vientiane)...Victoria and I were WORN OUT. Sitting on a plane sucks. But we finally reached Ginny, the destination. Ginny was one of my dear roomates in college. One of my best girlfriends on the planet, she's been living in Laos as a marketing manager for 3 years now. Nobody has ventured to see her life there yet so who do you think was willing to go with TWO whole months off work? ...yep, me. And a teacher I work with, Victoria, loves travel and Asia, so she came too and it ended up being great to have three of us.

When we arrived Ginny took us straight to this spa place for a traditional Lao massage and facial. I'm pretty sure that was my first facial ever and it was AWESOME. I just laid there for an entire hour while they put stuff on my face, and sucked it off, and more stuff, and peeling and whatever they did my skin was in its best shape ever at the end....then we went in for the hour-long massage. I've had a couple of massages in my day. We had massage therapists on staff when i worked at the cvc...but these little Lao women were much stronger than they looked. This lady used all 4 of her appendages on me at one time...when the meat-Carisse-tenderizing session was over you could have probably cooked me and cut through me with a fork. But even though i was sore the next day...it was surprisingly a great feeling at the same time. Like I'd had months of tension chiseled away.

Everything we ate on this trip is a blur to me. Some of it was really good. Some of it was really gross. Especially since I'm not a huge fan of spicy or curry. I'm not picky, i can survive on anything for a couple weeks...but man, American Asian food is not even a little bit the same as Asian Asian food.

The next day we rented a moped and went with Ginny's friend Ning to see some sights. Buddah park was cool, they had a TON of sculptures...which shast and i usually spend time mocking and taking pictures with...Victoria and I did this a little bit (as seen above)...but tried to be discrete seeing as how some people take their religion in those sculptures seriously. We spent the whole day riding mopeds and seeing various parks, palaces, and temples that Vientiane had to offer. It was a great day and I came out of it REALLY wanting a Vespa. Seriously, those were so fun...if only i didn't have to take the highway to work I might be tempted to sell my car and buy one!!!

Driving a moped in a foreign country is a whole other story. Mom, you totally would have geeked out the entire time. Other countries, especially 3rd worlds, don't have the same traffic laws that we obey. 2 lanes easily becomes 3 lanes, honking is more a friendly sign of your presence rather than a rude insult, you can get cut off anytime by a goat, a cow, a pedestrian, car or fellow biker...it makes no difference who has the right of way, its every man for himself out there! So even though i was scared to drive a moped under these circumstances...it was still exhilarating!

I learned a little about the monks in orange robes too. Buddhists. I was under the impression that monks were devoting their lives, sort of like nuns do. But in actuality, people go there for all kinds of reasons and different lengths of time. I think every boy is required to go there for a time. But people also become monks to perhaps heal from grieving, they might go in for a couple of weeks and then back to their jobs. They arent allowed to touch anyone. The food they collect from people in the streets every morning is the only food they get to eat for the day. As much as my curiosity was peeked, Ginny says its quite different seeing the inside of a temple when people are actually there, using it, serving a god other than my own.

Day 3. We took a 3 hour drive to a city called Vang Vieng nearby. Ginny and i were in the back of this suv and i had no idea how bumpy this mother would be. I caught air several times and everyone should be grateful that I didnt blow chunks everywhere. Geez, 3 hours of up and down mountains, in and out of pot holes, over and under stray cows. But it was worth it when we got there.

We went with Ginny's roomate Kaylee and her cousin Katie, and this Lao girl that Kaylee works with named Pu Nong. She only gets to go home about once a year so this was a big deal for her to get a free ride. Her family made us lunch when we got there...like literally went out back and killed a chicken. Her house was a one room brick with an upstairs. No need for air con with all the windows. Her family seemed to be really close and they were so sweet to make us a meal and offer the freshest pineapple ever!!!

After lunch we went to the "water park". Again, no regulations or rules. So there was a zipline and swing and slide and some kyaks and tubes on this big brown river. I was super scared when we got to the top of climbing this big wooden staircase. Victoria and i went up there to use the trapeze swing, but it was so heavy and there's nothing to brace yourself on so we just did the zipline instead. I guess I hit my foot on some rocks at the bottom of the river because I had a swelling in the arch of my foot the size of a peanut shell. It was pretty much healed by the next morning though, so thank You, Lord.

I had my first drink of the trip that night. It was a "BeerLao" beer. I guess it was good? I dunno, beer is beer to me and they mostly taste the same if their lightly colored.

Went to westerner church sunday night and the C.O.P.E. visitor center Monday. We spent a lot of time at Cope. Its this prosthetic leg making place that has a museum about bombs in Laos. We watched this video called "Bomb Harvest" that was interesting. I almost bought it in the gift shop but I didnt know if it would work in american dvd players (australian dvds dont). Apparently, Laos is the most heavily bombed country in the world. And of all the bombs we dropped on them during the war, 80 MILLION of them never detinated and are STILL lying in Laos. This is a major problem because children dig them up so they can sell them for pricey scrap metal. People who live in the mountains frequently step on them unknowingly and suffer either injury or fatality. The whole center was very informative, but very sad. I think a lot of innocent people were caught in that war. And its even MORE sad that new generations are still paying for it. The bomb harvest video showed a situation in which a bomb had been uncovered, sticking out of the ROAD between TWO elementary schools. In the road! Someone could just drive over it and set it off.

The work the people at C.O.P.E. are doing is incredible. Kids that get to go there are very fortunate and sometimes travel 26hrs or more in a car to get to it. Much like the gruesome bumpy ride in the car I had to endure for a mere 3 hours. I cant imagine going through that for 26, and while injured at that!

Laos might have been my favorite leg of the trip. It was great to see what Ginny's life is like there. There is a smell that 3rd world places hold, and also a tension. There is a tension that rings in the air when everything is a little bit dirtier, a little less convenient. A tension between pining for more, and being content with whats given to you. But then again, I guess aside from the smell factor, this is true of all cultures, poor and wealthy.

Next stop. Kual Lumpur, Malaysia.

Monday, July 6, 2009

Leaving

I don't usually read books twice. Because, the beauty of a book is earning page after page, reading during every single spare minute in order to reach the end. However, I have decided to give one book in particular another round. Maybe its my favorite book? I just love it, and every word resonates with me and my own life.

Through Painted Deserts -by Donald Miller.

I cant wait to get to Asia tomorrow. The weirdest part of traveling to me is thinking about where I'll be sleeping next. The fact that I'll be in my own bed tonight, and then I'll be in an airport in Bankok tomorrow night, and Ginny's the night after that. And the thought of all the ground I will have covered 2 weeks from today.

I need to get out of here. I've been in Texas too long. And when i leave my own environment...my head becomes clear. Decisions for my life become clear. I have learned so much about myself this year. So many ugly parts of me have surfaced. So many people that God has strategically used to refine me. And, I know how important the need for change in those ugly parts are.

"The seasons remind me that I must keep changing, and I want to change because its God's way. All my life I have been changing...No, life cannot be understood flat on a page. It has to be lived; a person has to get out of his head, has to fall in love, has to memorize poems, has to jump off bridges into rivers...LEAVE...And you will not be alone. You have never been alone. Don't worry. Everything will still be here when you get back. It is you who will have changed." --from the Author's note

This isn't like the last time, when i went to Australia and felt the need to physically move into the unknown. My need for change has to do with my heart inside. I can be so cocky and arrogant at times...but most of the time I am completely insecure. I overanalyze the shit out of everything...instead of just doing. I half-ass a LOT, rather than going at everything with all my heart. Shouldn't that be the better way to live? To go in the name of passion at everything...and whether love or pain, at least I would not have regret...at least my mouth would not know how to say, "What if?".

The chains that bind me today are not bound by Dallas, or American dreams, or security, or what have you. The chains that bind me now come from my own human flesh. My weakness from how I've allowed the world to make me weak. It is my soul that God is after now. It is through that refiners fire that God can change me into a loving person. And I know that it is only God that can change me into a selfless person that puts others first. Because THAT'S the kind of person I WANT to be. I want to personify that kind of Love.

And when I fall in love...I want to fall in love with their soul first. Not their appearance. Not the attention they give me. Not the tangible things about them that make them cool, or smart, or sweet...I want to fall in love with their soul. I want to fall in love with a man that puts forth the effort to display God's love in every inch of his life, with everyone he knows and everything he does. I want to fall in love with a man who will look to God in all things. Is this the perfect man I've just described? Yes. But I'm not looking for the perfect man...I'm only looking for the man who attempts to live his life that way.

Because I am not the perfect girl...by any means! I am FULL of flaws. But i WANT to be the person I've just described. I want to be the person that intentionally attempts Love first, always. And if I am to have a partner in this life, if I am to be put on a team of two...then I will have to have someone who encourages that part of me, brings out the best in me, who looks at life through that lens.

I trust You, Lord. Take me to Asia. Please reveal Yourself to me.

Indecision

You're not sure that you love me
But you're not sure enough to let me go
Baby it ain't fair you know
To just keep me hangin' 'round

You say you don't wanna hurt me
Don't want to see my tears
So why are you still standing here
Just watching me drown

And it's alright, yeah I'll be fine
Don't worry 'bout this heart of mine
Just take your love and hit the road
There's nothing you can do or say
You're gonna break my heart anyway
So just leave the pieces when you go

You can drag out the heartache
Baby you can make it quick
Really get it over with
And just let me move on

Don't concern yourself
With this mess you've left for me
I can clean it up, you see
Just as long as you're gone

You not making up your mind
Is killing me and wasting time
I need so much more than that

Leave the pieces when you go
Leave the pieces when you go

--The Wreckers